Are you Living Your Truths and Ideals? Here’s my story on this subject!

To give you a little background on things, I have been receiving two major pieces of information about myself during my meditations lately. Basically I’ve had many meditations in the past few weeks where I get to a point that I hear a loud inner voice telling me these things. Until the past day or two, I haven’t been able to accept them, dismissing them as fantasy, ego lies, etc. I’ve fought them, struggled against them and rationalized them away. To clarify a bit, they were things about who I am and my purpose on this planet at this time and further information that pertains to it. Given the fact that I’ve been a basket case most of my life until recently (and still exhibit some of these qualities from time to time over certain issues), it’s been hard to accept these things.

However, Wednesday night was a break-through. My new metaphysics teacher, one of my classmates and myself took a drive out to Stillwater (about an hour and a half or so) to hear a teacher from another school give a lecture on dreams and dream meanings. Now, I’ve been to many lectures on dreams at this point, but interestingly enough, I learn new things at every one. I also receive guidance on seemingly random things the lecturer says (but now I know it’s never random). Anyway, the four of us went out to a restaurant after the lecture. Somehow the topic got onto meditations, and I told the teacher from the other school how I get to a certain point in meditation and than my inner voice starts somewhat loudly interfering, and I can’t seem to get past it, and that it keeps telling me the same two things that I couldn’t believe were true.

He looked directly at me and said something to the effect of, ‘Well, it sounds like you need to address and respond to what you are being told.’ As he said it, I felt locked onto what he was saying and felt it to my very core. I knew what he was saying was accurate. (As you get further along on your spiritual journey, you will not only be able to feel truth, not just hear it, but also see it, perceive it, feel it and know it). This was the case with what he told me. It was a powerful exchange and shook me. So on the way home, what he said kept going through my mind. I realized it was time to face and accept a certain truth (the first one of the two) that I didn’t want to confront. I cannot share this truth on here at this time, but suffice it is to say that it will give me a large amount of responsibility for the rest of my life and open me up to a life I never dreamed existed.

So late Wednesday night and yesterday (Thursday) I pondered over this realization and finally, finally decided to accept it. Last night was class night. During the time I was reading the lesson out loud, I was overcome with the urge to cry. Not a self-pitying, sad cry, but a ‘this is the truth’ cry. Because while reading, I was receiving images and words in my mind and heart that caused previously confusing concepts to ‘make sense’. And what I received pertained to the second truth that continually came up during and after my meditations.

I realized that I haven’t wanted to receive these new concepts because of fear – fear of responsibility, fear of teaching, fear of healing in the full capacity that I am able, fear of being a leader. But finally last night while reading the lesson, I realized that these fears are completely unfounded! I suddenly saw that my Higher Self/Spirit has always been here for me and has helped me a great deal of times during healings, unofficial counseling sessions with others, and many other instances. I am not alone and never was. And as I pursue my path of teaching and other higher-minded ideals, I will never, ever be alone and will always be inspired. Knowing this now, a huge weight of fear has been lifted from me.

Not only that, but lately I’ve struggled with discernment over my inner intuitive/spirit voice versus ego and other unproductive voices. I realized that the inner voice was there all along, communicating, but that I had been blocking it out for the above reasons.

Wow!

The question now is, am I living these two important truths that I’ve realized? Or more importantly, will I live them fearlessly going forward? I’ve realized and decided that I am accepting the life path of Service To Others (sacred, selfless service), and now I can hold this ideal in mind anytime I have a choice to make. And I can apply it to absolutely everything in life. Such as, when making a choice to do an activity, I can ask myself, “will this be for the good of all concerned (myself included), or is this out of line with my life ideal?” I have decided that this is the only way for me to live from now on, especially if I intend to carry out my life’s plans.


So I ask you, what Truths and Ideals do you know about yourself? Are you truly living them minute by minute, day by day? Are you too afraid to step out into the world and do what you know is right? If so, do not fear, we are all here for a reason, and if you are reading this, you have something very important to do for yourself and others and it’s time to get started NOW! Your life will never be the same, it will expand to include the most beautiful, amazing things you never thought (or maybe only wistfully imagined) were possible.

It’s the fifth day of my experiment and I have to say it’s going well! The only thing I have not been consistent with is the getting up at the same time each day. After some consideration I’ve decided to exclude it for now. I’m on a very ‘late’ sleeping schedule for now. It seems no matter what time I go to bed, I’ll toss and turn until 3 or 4am. Getting up at 8 or 9am after such little sleep is sort of agonizing for me. So, until my sleep patterns improve (which they will – I go through these ‘late’ cycles from time to time and they always pass) I’m going to give myself a break.

The checklists, positive talk and affirmations have been going fabulously! Each day I’ll include a couple of things on my list that I really don’t want to do but would be for the best. I’ve done everything on all of my lists except one thing on Monday.

As for the gossip, I am happy to say that I haven’t been perfect in this area, but much improved. By the way, I consider ‘gossip’ to be something said about a person that you wouldn’t say to their face. I believe I’ve said maybe one or two things in these past five days that would fall into this category.

Best of all, I’m seeing some of these positive changes mirrored in people around me. Yes, already – even after just five days! :) However, my experiment isn’t over. I am going to finish out this week and extend it for another week. In fact, I’m going to make this a way of life for me.

I’ll update again with more specific information in the next several days. I will also post about my current diet, which is vegetarian and not vegan.

I hope everyone enjoys their Thursday!

Unity Consciousness is taking place and a lot of interesting revelations and realizations are occurring as a result! Did you know that everything you think, say and do is reflected outwards to those around you – more so now than ever before?

I’ve been in a pattern lately: I’ll have a few days where things seem to go really well. Then suddenly, I’ll go through a crisis, where nothing makes sense and everything seems to go wrong. I’ll run in circles questioning everything and myself. Then suddenly I’ll break through to the other side and have new understandings. This has happened to me again in recent days, and as always I’ve broken through the muck and mire of confusion to the other side.

As I’ve mentioned a few times on this blog already, everything we do and say is projected outwards and that the people in our lives are basically a rough sketch of who we ourselves are. Well, in the past couple of days I’ve been able to see clearly – almost too clearly – the exact kinds of behaviors I am mirroring in those around me.

Don’t get me wrong – I am not in any way saying I’m responsible for their behavior or vice versa. It doesn’t work that way. :) However, it’s become obvious that anytime I succumb to certain kinds of unproductive behavior, I will see it reflected in some way (not always the exact way) in those around me. The same goes for productive and ‘positive’ behaviors.

So, being that I am currently proactive about improving myself and also wanting to teach through example, I’ve decided to conduct an experiment. For the next week, I am going to make certain positive and productive changes in some of my own behavior with the intent that it will also spread outwards to those around me. Here are the things I’m planning to do: 1. Get out of bed at an exact time every morning. 2. Set myself a checklist of five things to do every day, and stick to it no matter what. 3. Say at least 2 positive affirmations 100X each per day. 4. No gossiping – anytime gossip is present I will remove myself from the situation or sit silently without contributing. 5. Be constantly aware of the things I say at all times and keep my talk productive and positive.

The first two activities on the list are will-building; the last three are ways to set in motion more powerfully positive vibrations around me.

The things on my checklist above might sound easy to some of you out there, but most have proved to be a bit challenging for me to do consistently. For instance, I have found it nearly impossible to get up at a set time, especially given that I sometimes have trouble falling asleep at night [especially lately]. And I’d be lying if I said I didn’t like to trade juicy gossip! :) Also, I usually tell people about any and all ailments I’m experiencing.

So, this may be quite the challenge, but I am up for it! In the past when sticking to new vows like these, it seems at first I’m bombarded with temptations to do the old behavior. For example, every time I make a vow not to gossip or complain, I’ll literally get people calling me all day wanting to gossip or complain. Usually it drives me insane and I give up almost immediately. But I’ve found it’s normal – there is almost always resistance to any kind of change at first! I shall once and for all learn how to persevere through it without giving up. Keep in mind that I will not give up this time, even if I give into temptation. As Mother Teresa said, “saints are sinners who never gave up.”

I am visualizing that a week of doing the above productive things will set a new standard for my own behavior and thinking. And I have no doubt that I’ll see it positively reflected in my lovely friends, acquaintances and family around me. I’ll keep you all informed of how it’s going!


I challenge all of you out there who are reading this: why not do the same? Pick one behavior that you see in yourself and those around you – something that you can start working on immediately. Don’t tell anyone that you are changing it. Just DO it. After a week, look at those around you and how it is affecting them. If anyone tries this, I’d love to here how your experiment went – post your results in the comments section!

There are a lot of people suffering out there. Truth be told, I have been one of them for the past week. I’ve been wallowing in self-pity, depression, self-righteousness, and self-destructive thoughts and habits. Some of my closest friends & family members also seem to be ‘stuck’ in areas of their lives that they are repeating over and over.

These family and friends are people who I would definitely call ‘Light Workers’. We all have something important to offer others, whether it be healing & nurturing abilities, psychic and/or mediumship abilities, teaching, and/or creative abilities. (To be fair, this sums up pretty much every human walking the planet these days!) However, each of us have a strong ‘issue’ we are struggling with. Some of these include addiction, self-doubt, fear, struggles with ‘dark’ spirits, codependency and much more. The thing we all have in common is that we have been allowing our own negative thoughts and beliefs/judgments dictate our lives. (Again, like most people walking this planet). We have seen patterns continue throughout our lives, and we feel like we can’t get out. Most of us try to and have a lot of difficulty.

Most importantly, however, is that we all have continued to look at the things we DON’T like about ourselves. I myself definitely do this. I keep judging the place I am currently in. I feel trapped. I see all these things around me that are bogging me down and holding me back – to the point that I almost feel I can’t look ahead!

(See what I mean!? In the above paragraphs, I’m doing the same thing again – pointing out the unproductive things I am doing. I’m focusing on who I don’t want to be).

This is the problem! Why don’t I shift my thoughts towards what I do want instead? And focus on improvements in body, mind and spirit? And focus, most of all, on gratitude for who I am right now, and on creating things in my life that are high in vibration!

From what I have learned so far, it appears that we need to decide what/who we want to be, and work towards that. Visualization. It sounds so simple. And it is! It requires a clear-defined visualized goal, one you can see clearly in your mind’s eye. Write down a goal along with a purpose, and the activity needed to bring this change about. Reaching where we want to go is quite simple when we take continuous, determined action towards that goal. Staying in the present while we do this is also important, because the choices need to be made on a moment-to-moment basis. Staying in a grateful frame of mind is also very beneficial.

So the gist of what I’m saying here is, why don’t we head in the direction we want to go, rather than think about all the places we don’t? Myself and many others around me have been torturing ourselves with this. I’ve decided to put my foot down and focus on productivity, love and light. I can and will choose to make one productive choice after another. Instead of making a choice that I’ve made several times in the past that has led to the same conclusion over and over (drinking alcohol or comfort-eating, for example), I will make different choices. If and when a friend reaches out who is suffering with doubt, fear or limiting thoughts, I will do my best to help raise the vibration of the conversation to light, love and truth. (And if that isn’t possible, I will lovingly end the conversation).

To sum up, here is something on Page 88 of the ‘Still Mind, Present Moment, Open Heart’ book that I recently read:

A conscious choice made in the present moment affords infinite possibilities.

We can choose to suffer. Or we can choose to move forward into light and service to others.

Which do you choose?

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