Are you Living Your Truths and Ideals? Here’s my story on this subject!
To give you a little background on things, I have been receiving two major pieces of information about myself during my meditations lately. Basically I’ve had many meditations in the past few weeks where I get to a point that I hear a loud inner voice telling me these things. Until the past day or two, I haven’t been able to accept them, dismissing them as fantasy, ego lies, etc. I’ve fought them, struggled against them and rationalized them away. To clarify a bit, they were things about who I am and my purpose on this planet at this time and further information that pertains to it. Given the fact that I’ve been a basket case most of my life until recently (and still exhibit some of these qualities from time to time over certain issues), it’s been hard to accept these things.
However, Wednesday night was a break-through. My new metaphysics teacher, one of my classmates and myself took a drive out to Stillwater (about an hour and a half or so) to hear a teacher from another school give a lecture on dreams and dream meanings. Now, I’ve been to many lectures on dreams at this point, but interestingly enough, I learn new things at every one. I also receive guidance on seemingly random things the lecturer says (but now I know it’s never random). Anyway, the four of us went out to a restaurant after the lecture. Somehow the topic got onto meditations, and I told the teacher from the other school how I get to a certain point in meditation and than my inner voice starts somewhat loudly interfering, and I can’t seem to get past it, and that it keeps telling me the same two things that I couldn’t believe were true.
He looked directly at me and said something to the effect of, ‘Well, it sounds like you need to address and respond to what you are being told.’ As he said it, I felt locked onto what he was saying and felt it to my very core. I knew what he was saying was accurate. (As you get further along on your spiritual journey, you will not only be able to feel truth, not just hear it, but also see it, perceive it, feel it and know it). This was the case with what he told me. It was a powerful exchange and shook me. So on the way home, what he said kept going through my mind. I realized it was time to face and accept a certain truth (the first one of the two) that I didn’t want to confront. I cannot share this truth on here at this time, but suffice it is to say that it will give me a large amount of responsibility for the rest of my life and open me up to a life I never dreamed existed.
So late Wednesday night and yesterday (Thursday) I pondered over this realization and finally, finally decided to accept it. Last night was class night. During the time I was reading the lesson out loud, I was overcome with the urge to cry. Not a self-pitying, sad cry, but a ‘this is the truth’ cry. Because while reading, I was receiving images and words in my mind and heart that caused previously confusing concepts to ‘make sense’. And what I received pertained to the second truth that continually came up during and after my meditations.
I realized that I haven’t wanted to receive these new concepts because of fear – fear of responsibility, fear of teaching, fear of healing in the full capacity that I am able, fear of being a leader. But finally last night while reading the lesson, I realized that these fears are completely unfounded! I suddenly saw that my Higher Self/Spirit has always been here for me and has helped me a great deal of times during healings, unofficial counseling sessions with others, and many other instances. I am not alone and never was. And as I pursue my path of teaching and other higher-minded ideals, I will never, ever be alone and will always be inspired. Knowing this now, a huge weight of fear has been lifted from me.
Not only that, but lately I’ve struggled with discernment over my inner intuitive/spirit voice versus ego and other unproductive voices. I realized that the inner voice was there all along, communicating, but that I had been blocking it out for the above reasons.
Wow!
The question now is, am I living these two important truths that I’ve realized? Or more importantly, will I live them fearlessly going forward? I’ve realized and decided that I am accepting the life path of Service To Others (sacred, selfless service), and now I can hold this ideal in mind anytime I have a choice to make. And I can apply it to absolutely everything in life. Such as, when making a choice to do an activity, I can ask myself, “will this be for the good of all concerned (myself included), or is this out of line with my life ideal?” I have decided that this is the only way for me to live from now on, especially if I intend to carry out my life’s plans.
So I ask you, what Truths and Ideals do you know about yourself? Are you truly living them minute by minute, day by day? Are you too afraid to step out into the world and do what you know is right? If so, do not fear, we are all here for a reason, and if you are reading this, you have something very important to do for yourself and others and it’s time to get started NOW! Your life will never be the same, it will expand to include the most beautiful, amazing things you never thought (or maybe only wistfully imagined) were possible.







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