I spent the past weekend at another spiritual focus weekend in Missouri (the College of Metaphysics), and let me just say… WOW. This was my second time up there for a weekend and once again it far succeeded any positive expectations I had.

Each of their weekends have a theme, and this time it was ‘Genius Code/Creative Mind’, and we each received an intuitive reading about how we use our creative minds, how we manifest thoughts and ideas into the physical, and suggestions on how to draw more of that power. I went into the weekend thinking I’d get an interesting report because I’ve always been very creative, have always had amazing ideas (some of which ended up being successful), and have always felt that creative spark. However, the report geared more towards how I was creating my life in general – meaning, manifesting thoughts and ideas into physical realities.

I’ve mentioned on here lately that I’ve had really profound spiritual experiences. As alluded to in my last full post, a couple of weeks ago, I’d received information from part of my highest Self, which is superconscious mind. For those that don’t know, we have seven levels of mind. Imagine a triangle with 7 levels, divided into three main areas. The 7th (and bottom) level is the conscious mind, which is where most people reside day to day. Then levels 3-6 are in the subconscious mind – the 6th is the emotional level, 5th is lower astral, 4th is higher astral (the Akashic records are somewhere between the 4th and 5th levels), and the 3rd is mental. Next at the top of the mind triangle is superconscious mind, where divine inspiration for our soul’s and spirit’s plan is. The 2nd level of mind is the causal level and the 1st is God-consciousness (basically, the part of mind Buddha, Jesus and other enlightened masters reached during their lifetimes).

So anyway, recently I’d had experiences where I’d received true divine inspiration. Well I found out in my intuitive reading that I have the capability to not only receive it, but I have the mental capacity to function in that light ‘continuously’. I literally have the ability to receive from superconscious mind (the highest part of mind!!) on a regular basis! Providing, of course, that I continue to hone and build my concentration, attention and intention. I was floored and overjoyed when I heard that. The report mentioned that I do manage to create and manifest various ideas and purposes, but that there is a lot of polarity in my mind that will need to be balanced out. Some of my ideas are very whimsical, some of them are pragmatic. My goal is to balance the two out. It will take immense concentration and attention.

So, the weekend was full of profound experiences. There is the most powerful spiritual and healing energy up at the college, which is located a ways outside of Springfield. Everyone attending this session cried at some point or another, including me. It was a healing kind of crying however, the kind where you feel it in your heart chakra area. I cried the first night I got there because I was having another ego reaction. That’s one thing that happens as well when you are on the path to enlightenment – your ego/physical brain is threatened and will do anything and everything it can to keep you entrapped. I’ve seen the nasty, manipulative and seductive sides of my ego now and let me tell you, it ain’t pretty. So, my first night up there, I lay in bed crying, with all sorts of negative thoughts. It felt at one point that I was having a ‘dark night of the soul’ of sorts. I felt abandoned, alone, etc. However, at one point I felt a spiritual presence pat me gently on the feet. Earlier in the evening we’d gathered in the peace dome, which is this dome-shaped building on the property, for a lecture. It was powerful and moving. (My second cry of the weekend was when we were allowed to enter the second floor of the peace dome. They read a peace proclamation up there every morning, plus meditate, and the energy is SO powerful that I can’t even explain it. All I know is that I walked in the huge, bright room and immediately began crying and couldn’t really stop the entire time I was in there. It was a healing cry and I received immense love throughout).

The next morning I awoke refreshed, and we began the day. We received our intuitive reports, transcribed them, then had a question-and-answer session with the chancellor of the school, who is definitely a truly enlightened person. (Both him and his wife run the college, and they are filled with this beautiful, loving, powerful healing energy. Most people, including me, have cried or teared up while talking to one of them because of the immense waves of love pouring from them. The chancellor is the person who wrote the book in the right column of this blog, ‘Permanent Healing’ – one of the most important books I’ve ever read and highly recommend to everyone!) So anyway, we received answers to our deepest questions. He also diagnosed a thyroid inflammation while I was receiving my report, and I received suggestions on how to heal it. I also found out why I have it in the first place. I will be doing a separate post on this!

Anyway, the weekend continued on, and there was so much healing, love, laughter and realizations that took place. Anyone and everyone that goes up there wants to stay and stay, they don’t want to leave, including me! (If you are a student in the School of Metaphysics, you can go live up there after you complete the first cycle). Anyway, I had the chance to sit and talk to the chancellor one-on-one before leaving. This was one of the many highlights of the weekend – somehow I ended up pouring out my heart about certain issues that had been weighing on my mind. Some of the more embarrassing issues I’ve had came out, too, and I felt completely safe the entire time. Each time I shared something, I felt an outpouring of healing entering my heart chakra and that the issue was healed. I received some direction and advice on what I can do going forward.

Another major thing I focused on this past weekend was staying receptive to healing and love. There is SO much love and healing up there, and the last time I’d been there, I was so fearful that I blocked a lot of it. It’s so powerful that you feel yourself receiving it through the heart chakra. This weekend, I stayed very mindful of receiving, and anytime I became aware I was blocking, I opened myself again. The ways I block myself are by being very physically tense – I would tense up my body. Or my mind would wander to something else. Or, while talking to someone one-on-one, I’d nod a lot or talk over them. Etc. As a human species, one of our main issues is that we feel separate from Spirit, and so we automatically do everything and anything we can to block it out and remain ‘separate’. (I’ll be doing a specific post about this at a later date).

I discovered this past weekend that this could possibly be my last life on earth… It seems so weird… I mean, most of my life, I was living in the dark, not knowing anything about anything! For the past few years, I’ve run a blog based on the most seemingly superficial stuff ever! And my awakening experience has just been in the last year! However, I know now that I chose my life circumstances very purposefully. I chose alcoholism, overeating and eating disordered thoughts, a very dogmatic religious upbringing, and parents who passed on certain unproductive thoughts – all for beautiful reasons. All of these experiences will be used for the Good! There are SO many people suffering out there and since I’ve now gone through the wringer myself, I can help others discover why they are going through it! And SO much more. I have SO many exciting and beautiful ideas on how to help people now.

One thing I learned this weekend is how utterly important it is – no, critical – to monitor what we think, act and do around our children. They literally pick up our thoughts and beliefs like a sponge and develop them into their own.

Now, after going through the hell and horror that is alcoholism, I have come out on the other side knowing what Light really is. I have learned compassion and gratitude – two qualities I barely knew about before the ordeal. I’ve had many, many lifetimes where I was religious and/or spiritual – including the one as a Tibetan Buddhist monk. One thing I lacked in many of those lifetimes was will and discipline, which is why I did not become fully enlightened in those lives. This is why I chose the parents I did in this lifetime, who passed on certain issues – I knew I would have to be ‘forced’ in this lifetime to develop will, or it would destroy me otherwise. So, when receiving the willpower and throat chakra healing a few weeks ago (described in a previous post), it set me on the path to receiving the wisdom I did this past weekend on how to expand on it, and constantly live and receive from the highest part of my mind.

Whew. Ok, anyway, it was an amazing weekend. I met some people who were amazing and have experienced amazing parallels to my own life. Most importantly I learned how important it is to consciously create things in our life. We create our lives and circumstances with our thoughts and intentions. Through concentration and meditation, we learn what our thoughts are, and through that can begin releasing unproductive and negative thoughts and upgrading them to positive. (I’ve been working on this since February, but am ‘stepping up the game’ now). Visualization, purpose and action are important steps to manifesting ideals and goals.

I will be doing a separate post talking about my thyroid inflammation (which has already healed to a certain extent) and how it’s related to will and my life’s purpose. I also will talk about my updated diet. (Yeah, I’m not currently eating vegan… more on that later.) I also plan to post about how to begin ridding yourself of negative thoughts.

Thanks for reading this super-long post!

I will share my goal/ideal for the day: My ideal/goal is to enhance my concentration skills. The purposes I have chosen is for concentration and clarity. (Much clarity comes from concentration). My ‘plan of action’ is to be mindful in all I do, and to meditate for an extended period of time and also complete my mental disciplines for the day.