Transcending Guilt, Self-Pity & Low Self Worth

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Jan 182012

Here’s a little affirmation/meditation one could use if they have trouble with feelings of guilt, low self worth, self-pity, etc. It would be a good idea to sit quietly, and say this out loud a few times, then meditate on it until it sinks in. Visualize it being true! I find when visualizing brilliant Light during meditation (or before, after, etc) I always receive a wonderful feeling of bliss, joy and peace.

I am a beautiful Child of God, a being of Light created by the Magnificent One. I and my Father are One. I am guided by my inner Truth and Highest Self and eagerly and joyfully make choices in alignment with my Highest Ideals. [Fear, pity and ignorance - choose whichever one you are struggling with, or all of them!] are transformed into joy and awareness in this splendid creation. I AM perfect, my will is in alignment with the highest Good. I cheerfully perform sacred, selfless service and generosity to the Universe. Divine Love and Light flow through me and within me at all times. I am pure, I am Divine and I radiate goodness and Light to all.

I hope all of you are well in this new year of 2012!

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I'm Still Around!

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Jan 082012

Hey all! I am still around! I plan to come back here and start updating regularly again soon. I’ve gone through a lot of ups and downs since my last post. I’m working on de-polarizing my life a bit and bringing things into balance.

Thanks for continuing to visit… I’ll be back soon to update! :)

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Peaceful Mind Expansion

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Nov 152011

Remember, whatever you want others to be, first be that yourself; then you will find others responding in like manner to you. It is easy to wish that others would behave perfectly toward you, and it is easy to see their faults, but it is very difficult to conduct yourself properly and to consider your own faults. If you can remember to behave rightly, others will try to follow your example. If you can find your own faults without developing an inferiority complex, and can keep busy correcting yourself, then you will be using your time more profitably than if you spent it in just wishing others to be better. Your good example will do more to change others than your wishing, your holy wrath, or your words. The more you improve yourself, the more you will elevate others around you. The self-improving man is the increasingly happy man. The happier you become, the happier will be the people around you. — Paramhansa Yogananda

This is the motto I’m living by these days and it has brought a lot of peace!

Here’s another one…

“People are often unreasonable and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.
If you are honest, people may cheat you. Be honest anyway.
If you find happiness, people may be jealous. Be happy anyway.
The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough. Give your best anyway.
For you see, in the end, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway.” — Mother Teresa

That Mother Teresa quote is really powerful and mind-expanding, especially when you consider the Truth that we are all bright sparks of Divine Light walking around. So in dealing with each person we come across each day, we are, in essence, dealing with God…

:)

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How People Treat You Is How You See Yourself

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Nov 012011

This post is a continuation of my last post… read it, then come back and read this one.

Think about it… how are others treating you these days? In this post I’m going to provide some examples of how people might be treating you, then get into the probable cause for it. Take a deep breath and open your mind!

Are people being unnaturally mean to you? Then you are being mean to yourself in your thoughts. Perhaps someone was mean to you as a child and therefore, you decided unconsciously that you deserved it somehow. And that belief has manifested it happening over and over again…

Are people ignoring your calls? There are two possible causes for this. First off, if it’s one person, figure out what that person reflects in you. Are they a really kind, loving person? Do you see them as being creative? Or are they a nonstop complainer? Figure out what you see as their main quality. Then realize that you are likely ignoring that part of yourself in some way. Example: I have this particular guy friend who reflects/represents groundedness and consistency. Every time he starts getting distant, it causes me to look at myself to see if I’ve been distant from that part of myself. And sure enough, every time that is the case!

If multiple people are ignoring you, it could be that you have often felt ignored in your life and you have formed a belief within you that people ignore you. So it plays out over and over. Or if you feel abandoned, it could be that you have been and/or felt abandoned in your lifetime and have built that belief. Unconscious beliefs are particularly strong in manifesting in our lives, because we have them over and over but just don’t realize it (until later).

Is there a person in your life who is being really hard on you, such as a boss, etc? Or someone judging you very harshly? Well, look within… you are likely doing this to yourself or others. Either out loud or in your own mind. Example: a certain family member was working for this woman who was extremely judgmental and harsh in her criticisms. After talking to me about it, we determined that she (my family member) was exactly this same way – but only in her own mind. On the outside, she was kind of loving to others. But on the inside she was constantly criticizing herself and others. So her boss was merely voicing out loud the same things my family member thought inside.

Do people see only the worst in you? Do they not see the true kindness that you know you have within? Well, it could very well be that you have not really convinced yourself that you are kind or a good person. I know this has been the case in my own life. For a long time I felt extremely defensive, as people were accusing me of all sorts of things that I felt I wasn’t doing. However… I realized after a time that I hadn’t convinced my self that I had good intentions. I was still trying to ‘prove’ it, and underlying was still a belief that I was a bad person somehow. Realizing this can be incredibly painful but can be the start of a real healing journey within. (It has been for me!) One way to know if this is the case with you is, how often are you defending yourself? If someone accuses you of something, are you immediately defensive and angry? Well that means you haven’t quite convinced yourself that you are innocent. You will continually draw these kind of situations to you until you realize that you really are an amazing person and soul and deserve only the best in life. (We all are and we all do. Period).

Are you constantly a victim? Being hurt, left behind, abandoned, made fun of, stolen from, etc? First off, take a deep breath. Relax. You are not a victim of anything or anyone except yourself. Knowing this truth truly can and will begin the breaking down of that old worn out pattern! If you continually are stolen from, look within and see how you are stealing from yourself or others. Also check to make sure that you are not overly fearful of being stolen from. Example: a friend of mine keeps having people steal from him. I was able to recognize in him (intuitively) an overwhelming fear that was actually attracting that very scenario to continually play out! He was so fearful of being stolen from (for various reasons, one being that he hadn’t forgiven himself for stealing from others in the past) that he kept drawing the same experience to himself over and over. Our fears – especially the visualized ones – are powerful and will often manifest until we can release them somehow.

If you keep being abandoned, it’s probably that you have abandonment issues and fears that continually draw that very abandonment scenario to yourself over and over. (I’ve been through this myself countless times). If you are continually made fun of by others, first off, look at yourself honestly and see if you make fun of people – including yourself! I was made fun of in grade school a lot and only recently realized that I had the same habit, although I wasn’t as cruel about it. (Or more likely I probably was but didn’t realize it at the time, as I was too busy being a victim!) :)

The most amazing thing about all of this stuff is that it plays out on both ends: the person who sees themselves as a victim will continually draw to them people who see themselves as abusers (in some way or another). The complainer will continue to draw people to them that complain – and will often start complaining about it themselves! (Ha! I have done this as well). The teacher with commitment issues will continue to draw to themselves the student that is uncommitted. (And that kind of student will continue to draw teachers to them like that). And the person who doesn’t understand themselves will continue to draw to themselves people who misunderstand them.

It’s an ongoing cycle… but once we identify a pattern of thought within ourselves without judgment, light is shed on it, and it can begin to heal. It’s so amazing to see things heal in your life! And it’s amazing to see how people start treating us and reacting to us when we begin healing our own thoughts and beliefs. In my own life, for example, now that I’m becoming very confident with my healing and intuitive capabilities, people are actually seeking me out for help. I am drawing people to me who are looking for some sort of healing inside, as I myself have been.

I hope this post helps you realize that the power to change your beliefs and how people treat you is in your own hands! Remember: the Law of Attraction is always being played out. You will continue to attract your own vibration to you. It isn’t always fun to see. :-)

I will be following this post up with one about forgiveness of self and others!

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The Law Of Attraction Is Always In Effect

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Nov 012011

I continue to see my own thoughts, behavior and beliefs mirrored in those around me. I am simply astounded at how perfect it all comes together. The synchronicity in life – when you are aware of it – is profound. When you start paying attention to everything and everyone around you, life takes on an almost surreal tone and you realize how much you really are creating things with your thoughts.

I will give some examples in my own life! Yesterday I participated in a one-on-one healing session with a psychic healer via phone. It was an intense 2 1/2 hours! We were releasing old karmic pains, aches, shame, guilt, anger, etc from many lifetimes past. Truly it was an amazing, cleansing experience that I have only begun to see the benefits of! However, one of the things I had asked for healing on was some of my unhealthy eating patterns, which had (for some reason) crept back up in recent days. I found out I had starved to death in at least one past life, which has stopped me from losing weight at a reasonable rate in this life. (That is why I have to fight for every pound and often will feel a strange fear when I start losing weight in earnest!) So, after the session, I felt light, blissful and whole in many ways. However, my cravings for salty fattening food started back up with a vengeance about an hour later! I immediately became despondent and upset and focused my attention on the fact that it hadn’t been healed during the session. And focusing on that made me forget all the miraculous other healings that had taken place during the call.

At the same time I was also thinking about a past life where I had participated in some rather unsavory and downright cruel activities. I continued to turn the events over in my head, wondering how I could have done those things in that lifetime. (I have forgiven myself for the activities in that lifetime, but I was still stuck thinking about how I could have lived that way in the first place).

An hour or so later, I got on the phone with my sister, who was out trick-or-treating with her daughter. She began complaining nonstop about this and that. I began to get irritated with the call – she was out having fun with her daughter and why couldn’t just enjoy herself?!, but suddenly it hit me: I was doing the SAME thing! I was sitting around whining to myself about food cravings and a depraved past life. I was looking for the bad in the situations, when there was overwhelming GOOD to see everywhere!

So, after that phone call I immediately set myself back into the positive, loving and grateful state of mind I tend to stay in more and more often these days. I laughed at myself for focusing on the unpleasant. And it later reflected when I got another call from a friend who was just overflowing with positivity and joy.

It all just reminds me of how wonderful and blessed we are to have people in our lives who reflect stuff back to us. The Law Of Attraction is always in effect – ALWAYS – and when we tune into it, we can start to see how our own vibrations are attracting people and things of a like vibration. People use the Law of Attraction as a means to bring them everything they want in life, but they don’t realize it’s a Universal Law that is always in effect, all the time. The story above provides a great example, and here is another one:

I met up with a good friend Saturday night. We sat and talked for nearly 3 hours at a coffee shop! This person is also highly spiritual and recognizes that ‘thought is cause’. We often trade incredible stories of how we see miracles happening in our lives. So anyway, this friend and I had had a mild falling out a few months ago. She would go through periods where she would ignore texts and calls. And me – I have had abandonment issues since early childhood. So sometimes when a good friend or teacher, etc will suddenly start ignoring me, I tend to get really upset – ending the friendship or becoming rather childish about it all. (I’ve done some significant work on this issue recently, by the way!)

Anyway, we talked about things Saturday night and I told her that every time she goes days without responding, it triggers my abandonment issues. She told me that she knew that, and that she knew somehow if she didn’t respond that I would feel that way. She said that this has happened with many other people too and she often felt guilty and would feel somehow forced into replying to them. Suddenly it hit me… she has had an underlying guilt of abandoning people (for a reason that I won’t get into here, as it is a private issue) and I have had an underlying ‘knowing’ that people abandon me all the time. So, how poetic that we would play out this very scenario over and over! (This has happened about 3 times now in our friendship).

Now, someone could look at this issue and say, ‘gosh, these women have serious issues!’ Perhaps they are correct. But we all have lots and lots of issues! And going through something like this and being aware that it is our own thoughts and beliefs giving us the experience provides the perfect opportunity for healing on both ends. I was – through my beliefs and memories of being abandoned in the past – causing her to ‘abandon’ me. And she – through her own belief of a past issue was sure that she would abandon me at some point. And it happened!

Now that we have become aware of this pattern, we can both heal it within ourselves.

Isn’t it amazing how people in our lives reflect things back to us that can be healed within? I am now seeing it over and over, both in myself and everyone else around me. The sad thing is that we waste so much time blaming the other person, when all they are doing is reflecting our own thoughts and beliefs back to us in order that they can heal.

I am going to follow up this post with another post that describes how you can figure out what your innermost thoughts are and how they are affecting your life! Stay tuned…

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Our Natural State Is Bliss & Perfect Health

Enlightening Experiences, Messages From Beyond, Realizations 1 Response »
Oct 262011

I learned a very important lesson over the weekend: our natural state is bliss. The only thing making us think we are sick, miserable, unhappy and/or unhappy is our own thoughts. Truly!

I attended a ‘Still Mind Weekend’ at the College of Metaphysics over the weekend. The weekend was focused on allowing us to just be our true Selves – silent, at peace with nature and Whole. Truly it was one of the most amazing weekends of my life! We began Friday night by reading truths from a holy book around the table and stating our reasons for wanting a still mind in the first place. As of 11pm, the official silence began. We were silent from then until 9:30am or so on Sunday morning. We also juice fasted during that time. There were three official still mind meditations on Saturday and one last one Sunday morning. The other times we were free to wander around the beautiful campus – which has several places to meditate, sit under trees, watch animals, and also spots with sacred geometry. There was also a sacred fire going all day on Saturday and it turned out to be a great place to purify the thoughts.

When you spend time in such quietness and make a real effort to still your mind for any period of time, interesting things begin happening. When you do those things and then also meditate with a group of people along with a teacher who knows how to completely still his mind for extended periods of time, profound things happen. You begin to realize that stillness, peace and bliss is our natural state. The body literally begins to heal itself. This began to happen to me during our first still mind meditation Saturday morning. Sitting in the Peace Dome meditating with the others, a strange feeling I didn’t recognize started to flow through my body. It made me laugh quietly inside, which turned into a rhythmic breathing, which turned into deep breathing, which turned into my body beginning to stretch on its own. I realized pretty quickly that it was a feeling of bliss! How strange that I didn’t recognize it! :)

As the inner silence stretched on during that first meditation and my thoughts ceased to fire (mostly), my body decided that it wanted to heal some of the ailments that my thoughts had caused over the years. So it did… my neck and head began moving gently into stretches. My breathing took on a life of its own – I was literally being ‘breathed’ by spirit. I also continued to silently laugh with joy and bliss inside my stomach. My head and shoulders and neck were stretched gently (through head motions mostly, side to side, back and forth, etc) to the point that at the end of the meditation – an hour and a half later, which actually flew by so quickly! – my shoulders and neck released tension that had built up over years. As we walked out of the dome silently, I was buzzing with a joy and bliss I still couldn’t understand.

The second meditation that afternoon, the healing continued. I became aware that I was being guided through the stretches and breathing, as some invisible entity presence made itself known. I received gentle inner mind instructions on stretching and breathing. I breathed more deeply than I ever have in this lifetime. (The breathing was a gift, because I can now do it anytime I choose and it immediately produces stillness in my mind!)

Later that afternoon, however, I began having my thoughts come up loudly. My ego was unhappy about all this bliss apparently! Plus the deep breathing released some old memory patterns and unproductive beliefs. I went to sit by the sacred fire with the teacher/leader and a couple of others, but my mind was so loud and I was beginning to get upset. I battled that within for a while and finally went to meditate under a tree in the orchard for a while and realized that no matter what nasty, negative thoughts came up, I felt love for myself and others. Even for my ego, which was very threatened at that point.

The third meditation that day was a continuation and deepening. There were definitely spiritual presences in the peace dome throughout the meditations. I could see bright sparks of lights of different colors and at various points throughout the meditation (which was an open and/or closed eye meditation – I found open eyes allow me to stay still minded longer). Brilliant blue, white and purple light was present throughout the front of the dome and around the teacher.

I had waited many months to be able to meditate with that particular teacher, because I knew profound things would happen while meditating in his presence, and sure enough they did: bliss, and outpouring of love and a connectedness with my higher Self.

I woke early Sunday morning and sat on the porch of the main building and watched the sky lighten. I did some deep breathing on the bench and realized at that moment that I could become still anytime I wanted now, just by doing that particular breathing. It also triggered the bliss and gentle head and neck movements. I’ve realized since the weekend that the head and neck movements are/were my body’s way of healing not only current life issues, but past life issues. (More about that later in the post.)

Sunday morning’s still mind meditation and what followed after were truly the most profound and important experiences of my life so far… to begin with, there was a strong presence of unconditional love present in the dome that morning. Very powerful. Then somewhere about halfway through, I began to experience my Kundalini rising up and burning through my chakras. Now, I’ve experienced kundalini energy before, however, this was different. It was literally rising like a fire. I felt this extremely powerful energy flow through me suddenly. My body, which had been once again ‘intuitively breathing’ and gently moving on its own, began vibrating. The breathing changed. I won’t get too much into details, as there is plenty of information around the internet about what a kundalini rising feels like (think indescribable ecstasy, bliss, etc). It didn’t go through all of my chakras, but it did fill me with Light. Suddenly I heard in my mind, ‘Now only the Light remains’. My eyes were closed at this point and I saw that inner bright light that occurs during meditation sometimes, was brighter than ever before.

The meditation wrapped up soon after, but we weren’t done… there was more in store for us! The teacher took us downstairs to the bottom floor of the peace dome. And without going into details, we were allowed then to spend about an hour or so in the presence (literally) of Spirit/Superconscious Mind. We were even able to each ask a question. The questions and answers produced an inner joy and inner crying of relief, because it released years and probably even lifetimes of misunderstandings about life, light, love, etc. It also confirmed what is written here as being an expression of Truth.

We then wrapped up the weekend with a delicious healthy brunch meal and shared our experiences around the table. The teacher had us write up a paper describing our experiences. Later I got to sit and talk with him one on one for a bit, which is always a great joy and blessing because he is an incredibly wise person.

So, the weekend was filled with amazing experiences… bliss, joy, love, facing of negative thoughts for a while, peace, long meditations, stillness, much healing, etc. My body feels completely different now and the healing has continued. I now can go still for longer periods of time and my home meditations have increased in time. Other profound things occurred that weekend that I didn’t share here, but overall I realized the most important thing: take away the thoughts, and the body can begin to correct itself and heal itself and restore us to radiant health and bliss, which is our true nature! Thought is cause. Our thoughts are the only thing making us feel sick and miserable. When enjoying a stilled mind, one begins to know that the present is all that matters, the present is all that really exists. Thinking about the past and worrying about the future is a complete waste of time and causes pain.

The weekend has left me with a strong sense of wanting to share this truth with a great number of people. I’ve also been left with a more open heart and mind and much more peace. The only way to still the mind is to practice, every single day. I have been practicing concentration exercises and meditation for many months now and they have definitely paid off. I intend to continue my practices for the rest of my life… one can always progress. My goal is to be able to still my mind at will for as long as I want, and to mostly exist in that state.

So to wrap up this long post, I’ll share something else amazing that happened yesterday. When I was in Boston earlier this month, I’d set up an intuitive reading with a healer/psychic. The reason I called him in the first place is because I was reading through a New Age magazine and this guy’s picture literally jumped out and caught my attention. I knew I was divinely inspired to call him. So I called him, hoping to set up an in-person appointment. He didn’t have any available for the time I was in Boston, so we rescheduled for Oct. 25th. I was disappointed at the time but now I know it was perfect that I waited. While talking to him on the phone in Boston and yesterday during the reading, I became filled with this beautiful healing peace. Anyway, the session was exactly what I had been waiting for on more than one level. He immediately began talking about a past life where I had died in a certain way that caused neck and shoulder issues in this life. He mentioned another life where I had also injured my neck. So, I realized that the healing that was occurring over this past weekend was going through many lifetimes. I’d always had neck issues and pain in this life. Now I know why!

He also got into some other past life things and I was able to ask very specific things and receive very specific answers. This guy literally gave me the most direct and concise reading I have ever received (from a psychic/intuitive, that is). There was no ‘um, I don’t know…’s or hemming and hawing or beating around the bush. This guy is the real deal. Most incredibly, he even mentioned and clarified about a life that I’d brought up under past-life regressions last year! He also confirmed some of what I had received recently clairaudiently (during meditations and such) that I hadn’t trusted to be real information, but turns out that it is. He told me that I am a teacher of ‘young souls’ in the inner levels (also something I’d received through meditation and memory on my own but still wasn’t 100% sure of). He checked to see my soul’s purpose, which I hadn’t been totally clear about. It is: to learn everything I can while in this lifetime so I don’t have to incarn here again. That made me laugh out loud because it resonated so strongly as truth. I went through periods of bliss while talking to him and my body started doing the intuitive breathing on its own again. I knew I received incredible healing.

Needless to say, I highly recommend this guy! His website is here.

Anyway… all of my experiences over the past several days have really made me realize the importance of my metaphysical studies and daily disciplines (concentration, meditation, etc). If anyone out there reading this has any questions about a direction to take in their life, are at a crossroads and/or knows that there is more to all of this physical realm, please feel free to email me. I would love to help and provide intuitive guidance. I know others can experience all the things I have experienced and more. And if you live in Texas, Oklahoma, Missouri, Indiana, Illinois, Kentucky, Iowa or Ohio, check and see if there is a School of Metaphysics in your area. The study is literally changing my life and opening my eyes to who I really am as a soul/spirit.

Anyway, thanks for reading this very long post! I’ll be back with a new post shortly…!

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I Passed My Own Tests

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Oct 172011

Hey all! Thanks again to all who emailed for readings – I will get back to you in the next day or so.

I had a long talk with a couple of different spiritual advisers/teachers about my recent and ongoing spiritual experiences. I’ve realized that some of them do not need to be shared (except with teachers or people on the same path) because they are sacred and between me and my higher Self & God. Others can and will be shared here and elsewhere in order to help others and draw people experiencing similar things in order that they can relate.

Since my last post (which was written when I was in New Hampshire, on a road trip), I’ve back arrived home and gotten back into the swing of things. While on my road trip I subjected myself to circumstances that aren’t exactly ideal for a spiritual seeker; however, they served a higher purpose, some of which I don’t yet understand. Some of the things I did involved me being in what some would call ‘unsavory’ places, such as bars, etc.

I did accomplish the personal goals that I set out to do while there, which was awesome! One part of that, I realize now, is that I wanted to ‘test’ myself – to see if I really have changed and really am interested in living a different way. I also wanted to see if I would drink alcohol, given the chance… I surrounded myself with all of my old major ‘triggers’ for wanting to drink: my old drinking buddies, bars, super nice hotel rooms, road trips, etc. And throughout it all, I stayed sober. I attended no 12-step meetings. The entire experiment and experience proved to me that I have indeed changed my consciousness and the way I deal with life. I can easily stay sober. I do not need to drink. I also had a realization dawn on me while having dinner in a Boston pub with a friend: I never have to go into another bar if I don’t want to. And I don’t – there are some very strongly negative influences and entities within them.

And… drumroll please… I am no longer identifying myself as an alcoholic. This doesn’t mean I won’t attend my old 12-step meeting; I still will, maybe once or twice a week. I have friends there and there is a definite spiritual purpose for me to be at those meetings. (I plan to write more about this in a separate post!)

I also proved to myself that I do indeed have willpower and self-discipline, because I did my concentration exercises and meditations EVERY SINGLE DAY regardless of how tired I was!

The only thing I didn’t succeed at while away was eating healthy. Road food and fast food because overwhelmingly tempting and I gave in. However, I’m remedying that now.

One exciting thing I did while on my road trip was visit a few different metaphysical/New Age stores in various cities and states. I picked up some various crystals, books and CD’s. In Indianapolis, I got an Aura Picture Reading, along with an intuitive reading that came along with it. The woman was dead on with what she said. I hadn’t even been expecting to get a reading with the picture so it surprised me. By the way, I may scan in the picture when I get a chance. It was rather interesting. My energy field was HUGE and had a lot of orange, gold, green, yellow and red in it. Now that I’m home and have revamped my diet, spiritually ‘cleansed’ myself and rejuvenated my energy, I want to get a new picture. I learned that one picks up lots of ‘influences’ while traveling and staying in hotels and being in crowded places.

One thing the woman picked up on was that I’d recently released a lot of karmic burdens and lessons. She perceived that I have a blank slate with which to work on now. She said that I have the power to ‘write my own fairytale’ in my life. For some reason that stuck with me and I am planning to do some writing along those lines…

Anyway, that is it for now… I’m still doing intuitive email readings; however, it will take up to a week or so for me to get back to you! I’m also working on a post about various media influences and how they affect us. It will not be one of those ‘Media is BAD!!! Turn off the TV!!!’ posts. No… it’s that I’ve had some direct experiences and realizations in regards to various media sources (TV, books, music) and have decided to share them with as many people as I can. :)

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What Should We Share With Others?

Day-to-Day Life, Enlightening Experiences, Intuitive & Psychic Gifts 2 Responses »
Oct 042011

Sometimes I wonder just how much of my spiritual journey I’m supposed to be sharing on here or in person with others. Do we share our profound spiritual experiences with others, or keep them to ourselves? Do we share them with others who do not go through the same things? This is a situation I am trying to figure out. Many miracles and profound things are happening in my life, and while I am so eager to share them with others, a part of me feels I need to take a step back and find out why I feel the need to talk about them. Most people haven’t yet gone through many of these things and can’t relate.

That is one reason this blog doesn’t get updated as often as I’d like. Because I think about posting something that happened, then I say to myself, “Wait… how would that come over to the general public? Would people think I’m crazy? Would people think I’m showing off? How do I write about this?”

One profound thing occurring right now in my life is that I am very ‘awake’. It’s to the point that I look around and many people appear to be asleep, just going through the motions of life. Yet at the same time I can still see their inner light. If I look at a person long enough now, I can literally see the light of their soul. (See what I mean? How can I tell people this without them thinking I am crazy?) But I know it is happening, and I feel more grounded these days in reality than ever. I see how people start to respond to me when I look at them in this way, and there is a deep change in them. They begin to open up. There is a love experienced that I feel in my own heart chakra radiating outward to them during this time. They relax and start to look more lively. I am in tune with my intuition at that time and can pass along things to them that will help them.

I’m not sure if this new ability of seeing people in this way is a result of new third-eye stimulation and awakening, or if it has come along with concentration and meditation, but… it’s profound and I am SO grateful to be able to connect with people like this. There’s a part of me that longs to make a huge difference in people’s lives. I want everyone to find the joy and love and miracles I’ve discovered in life recently…

So, along with these and other things occurring, I wonder how much of it I am supposed to share about. I’ve decided to start keeping a detailed private journal of all of my experiences.

If anyone has any feedback or opinions on this topic, feel free to leave them in the comment section!

Also, I am taking some time tomorrow night (Wednesday) to do some email intuitive readings. Please let me know if you guys would like a reading. I’ll take the first four people that email. (Email address on my ‘Who Am I?’ page). If you emailed me prior and did not receive a response, feel free to resend it if you are still wanting a reading.

I hope you all are enjoying your week so far!

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Amazing Spiritual Weekend

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Sep 262011

I am back from my weekend in Oklahoma City and it was amazing! I spent the weekend with many metaphysically-minded and spiritual people and teachers. The Still Mind, Present Moment, Open Heart event was very eye-opening. I got the chance to use some of my newly acquired concentration skills throughout the day on Saturday and Sunday. And when you spend that much time in the mind (as opposed the brain/ego), profound things happen!

One of the best things to come out of that weekend was the realization that I really, really want to be a spiritual/metaphysical teacher. I got to talk to several students from other schools (in different cities and states) who are a little behind me in the lessons and was able to share a little about my experiences and realizations from when I was on those lessons. And it was such an incredible joy to see them listening to what I had to say and having it resonate with them! I realized that I want to be teaching people who are as eager to learn about the mind and spirit as I am. Another benefit that came from the weekend: I managed to shed a lot of baggage, get in touch with my deeper Self and realize the things I believe are really important.

So, the weekend started as my teacher and I arrived at the Oklahoma City School of Metaphysics on Friday evening and helped prepare for the upcoming weekend events. We had dinner with many students from other schools along with the Chancellor of the college (who was the speaker/leader for Saturday’s event) and his wife and son. We did a group meditation late Friday night before bed, then Saturday we headed over to the Oklahoma City University to set up for the Still Mind event. Then we did another large group dinner Saturday night. Sunday (yesterday) we sat through three rounds of intuitive reports. The reports are done by two doctors of metaphysics and given from the inner levels of mind. Sitting through the reports is a profound experience… knowledge and wisdom from the ‘inner levels’ (spiritual realm) is given. The room is very still and if a person is open, they can receive healing, peace and intuitive guidance. I received a few things that I wrote down to later share.

One thing I realized is that all wisdom and knowledge – brilliant ideas and concepts – already exist in the inner levels, and the people (known as ‘geniuses’ and brilliant thinkers) are simply people who have learned how to access these parts of their minds. Usually it’s from past lives where they practiced meditation, concentration and/or other mind exercises. I am grateful that I am one of the people who can receive ideas and insight. In the past few months I have received so many amazing ideas, and now I realize that it is not ‘me’ who is coming up with the ideas, but that I am merely the vehicle that is receiving them. It is up to me now to follow through on them. This was alluded to in my past life profile.

The past life profile reading that I received was of a life from the 1700′s. I was a woman born in England (my name was Agatha) who married at a young age and followed my husband to India, where we lived out the rest of our lives. Apparently we were well off because we had servants, and after several of my servants died of illness, I became interested in Ayurveda. I became adept at the practice, bringing in people who knew about it, and learned a great deal and started helping heal people with the knowledge. I apparently taught a few people near me about it but never found my voice, so I could not make a significant difference except in the people’s lives who I helped. Apparently there were some things going on in India around that time (which I have yet to look up for that time period) and I became secretive of my knowledge and wouldn’t tell people where I learned it. Therefore, I missed out on passing along important knowledge that could have benefited a great deal more people.

The reason that past life was brought up in the reading is because it’s relevant to my current situation. As mentioned above, I receive so many ideas for helping people – some of which I share on here and my other blog – but some that involve writing books about certain topics pertaining to alternative methods of healing that involve the mind. Sitting through the readings (mine and other people’s) opened up even more ideas and concepts to share. It was mentioned in my report that I have the opportunity to share a lot of things with a lot of people and that it’s time to start testing out these theories and ideas I have on a much bigger scale.

Anyway, it was a mind-blowing weekend indeed! I met lots of new people and reconnected with people I haven’t seen for a while.

Another great thing that came out of the weekend events is that I have discovered a great desire within me to share what I am learning and experiencing with others – even when I don’t have it all quite figured out yet. So, I’m committing myself to doing that here on this blog (even though I may miss a few days here and there!) and on my organicveggiegirl.com site. It’s going to be a busy next few weeks… I am going to be out of town again this coming weekend and possibly for the next week and a half after that. I will however have a laptop with me and continue to update when I can.

I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend!

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Update On Readings & Away For The Weekend

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Sep 222011

Hey all! Thanks so much to those who emailed me for help. I received a lot more requests than I thought I would! The feedback I received was very helpful and positive. It has led me to realize that this is something I am meant to do.

I will be away in Oklahoma City for this event for the weekend. So I will not be on email (except very sporadically and briefly) until next Monday. However if you already emailed me, I will definitely get back to you over the next couple of days!

I am so excited, as I will be receiving a past life intuitive reading on Sunday. As mentioned elsewhere, I’ve already uncovered several (around 10-12) of my past lives during meditations, past-life regressions and intuitive readings in the past year and a half. (I met with a therapist regularly in 2010 and we did several regressions together in order that I could figure out why I was going through certain issues in this lifetime).

Anyway, I’ll definitely let you all know what comes up! I hope you all have a wonderful weekend. :-)

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