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We Can’t Lose What We Never Owned Anyway…

What a gorgeous tree picture!  No, I did not take it. ;)

So, I’m still doing really well.  2012 is definitely a year of letting go, as I mentioned in my last post.  I decided to post some updates here on this site from my Facebook account.  (Add me there if you’d like!) They kind of go along with the theme that I’ve been noticing in the past month or two.

I posted this on my Facebook on July 26th, 2012:

I just lost a beloved family pet, I just lost another friend (that makes 3 good friends this year who no longer want anything to do with me), and lost some of my sanity in recent months; however, life is good nonetheless. No matter what I lose, I still seem to have a certain peace, a certain ‘knowing’ that things are OK. I know I will never lose what is within me, and that is the most important thing of all.

Then I posted this on July 30th, 2012:

I’m learning a lot this year. In ‘losing’ friends and letting go of ‘things’, I’m realizing we don’t really own anything in this physical world. Emotions come and go, possessions and people come and go, seasons change, time goes on. The nature of the physical world is change. We just have to learn to change with it peacefully, learn the lessons that accompany it and embrace the newness each moment. And let go of what is not ours now, nor never was in the first place.

An intriguing thing continues to happen as I deliberately let go of attachments.  (Which yes, has been a very slow process indeed).  I’m learning to truly trust myself, for the first time ever.  And other people are actually trusting me.  The more I let go – the less I ‘grasp’ things and people – the more new things and people are attracted to me, for various reasons.  The more I ‘let go and let God’ as the saying goes, the more interesting life becomes.

In letting go of attachments to people, places and things, this doesn’t mean I’m becoming an unfeeling, cold machine with people and cutting everyone and everything out of my life.  Quite the opposite, in fact… I’m finding that I feel a more pure, open-hearted and all-encompassing love within myself, for everyone and everything – including my own self/Self, which is new for me.  As I slowly let go of things and people who no longer match my vibration (and vice versa), I’m finding so much more peace and joy!  And after having some people move out of my life this year, I’m finally now beginning to let new people in.  I’m learning how to enjoy a person and the friendship for what it is in any current moment.  Because it always changes anyway!

Although everything isn’t perfect, I feel a lot of gratitude right now. This has been one of the hardest years of my life – I know I still haven’t told you all the full story yet – but the more gratitude I feel, the more reasons I find to feel gratitude.

In closing this post, I’m learning that nature and our earth are incredibly healing. I’m planning a trip shortly here to spend a little bit of time in nature, alone this time, amongst the trees.  More details to come…




What I’ve Been Up To

Hey all! I know I haven’t updated here in a while. I’m back in Oklahoma (after spending Friday-Tuesday in Missouri) and working on a new post for this site. It will probably be called something like “What I’m Learning About Greed”. ;)

Last weekend was spent at the College of Metaphysics for a spiritual focus session, and then I went down to Branson for a couple of days. I got to spend some quality time with several like-minded, wonderful people, meditate with an enlightened teacher who I also consider to be my mentor, and spend lots of time in nature with trees. As a matter of fact, I have a new appreciation for nature and trees after spending this past Monday and Tuesday taking nature walks with a good friend! Tree-hugging is something I highly, highly recommend to anyone who hasn’t yet tried it.

Speaking of which, if you walk up to a tree and ask it to tell you something, it usually will. (If people are around, you can ask in your head. :D ) I received this on Monday from a beautiful old tree down near the dam in Branson: “Rooting yourself in simplicity and stillness will allow a higher consciousness to be received.”

I had a two hour spiritual counseling session on Sunday with the enlightened teacher/mentor, which was very enlightening and healing.

I also went to see a spiritual healer who specializes in removing entities that are attached to a person. It turns out that I needed some extra help in this area. Recently, I’ve learned how to deal with entities and even managed to release a few that have been with me for many years. However, sometimes you need outside help when you are dealing with something that is rather powerful, or at least something that you have been giving a lot of power to for a long time. So, this guy ended up removing three from me that had been causing me a lot of agony and angst. If anyone out there in the Springfield/Branson area in Missouri needs help with this, I can give you a recommendation for someone who charges only a very small fee but is very effective.

Anyway, I have already noticed a difference within myself. For one thing, some food cravings have lessened to the point of almost non-existence. Also, I can now meditate without hearing voices all the time. Certain other things have also improved. I’m keeping an eye on things and have a follow-up appointment with the guy next week. Apparently, entities can and do sometimes compromise certain parts of the body they are attached to, and over time, do some damage. In my case, it turns out my liver was compromised and working at a pretty low level (that recent blood tests actually confirm), which was keeping me quite toxic. The healer managed to raise the vibration of my liver so that it is now flushing toxins out quite rapidly, to the point that I have been actually detoxing like crazy for the past few days. It’s not the most fun thing to go through, but I’m helping things out by drinking lots of water and tea.

As for attracting entities in the first place, there are many reasons why they ‘come aboard’. In my case, I attract them naturally for various reasons. Unfortunately some of my healing and intuitive work attracts them. This is one reason that I will probably refrain from doing any of this kind of work until I have raised my vibration to a higher level and am stronger in allowing energies to pass through me. More on this later… I intend to write a long post at some point about the many reasons we attract entities, plus how to release them.

Moving on… I had to make a very important decision about the house in Sedona. I have decided to move out of it and stay in Tulsa, for now at least. Whatever I was supposed to do there, I have already done, or can accomplish before I officially move out of that house.

I am focusing on building will power and discipline in my daily life for now. Those are my main goals for the rest of this year. I apparently have soul understandings in both of these, but due to my upbringing and the same old ‘tapes’ that have played in my head (brain pathways) for years, I haven’t been drawing upon those understandings to the extent that I can. So, it’s back to daily meditations and disciplines for me: concentration, affirmations, meditation, visualization and other things that I did much of last year but fell away from this year.

Check back soon for a new post!