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We Can’t Lose What We Never Owned Anyway…

What a gorgeous tree picture!  No, I did not take it. ;)

So, I’m still doing really well.  2012 is definitely a year of letting go, as I mentioned in my last post.  I decided to post some updates here on this site from my Facebook account.  (Add me there if you’d like!) They kind of go along with the theme that I’ve been noticing in the past month or two.

I posted this on my Facebook on July 26th, 2012:

I just lost a beloved family pet, I just lost another friend (that makes 3 good friends this year who no longer want anything to do with me), and lost some of my sanity in recent months; however, life is good nonetheless. No matter what I lose, I still seem to have a certain peace, a certain ‘knowing’ that things are OK. I know I will never lose what is within me, and that is the most important thing of all.

Then I posted this on July 30th, 2012:

I’m learning a lot this year. In ‘losing’ friends and letting go of ‘things’, I’m realizing we don’t really own anything in this physical world. Emotions come and go, possessions and people come and go, seasons change, time goes on. The nature of the physical world is change. We just have to learn to change with it peacefully, learn the lessons that accompany it and embrace the newness each moment. And let go of what is not ours now, nor never was in the first place.

An intriguing thing continues to happen as I deliberately let go of attachments.  (Which yes, has been a very slow process indeed).  I’m learning to truly trust myself, for the first time ever.  And other people are actually trusting me.  The more I let go – the less I ‘grasp’ things and people – the more new things and people are attracted to me, for various reasons.  The more I ‘let go and let God’ as the saying goes, the more interesting life becomes.

In letting go of attachments to people, places and things, this doesn’t mean I’m becoming an unfeeling, cold machine with people and cutting everyone and everything out of my life.  Quite the opposite, in fact… I’m finding that I feel a more pure, open-hearted and all-encompassing love within myself, for everyone and everything – including my own self/Self, which is new for me.  As I slowly let go of things and people who no longer match my vibration (and vice versa), I’m finding so much more peace and joy!  And after having some people move out of my life this year, I’m finally now beginning to let new people in.  I’m learning how to enjoy a person and the friendship for what it is in any current moment.  Because it always changes anyway!

Although everything isn’t perfect, I feel a lot of gratitude right now. This has been one of the hardest years of my life – I know I still haven’t told you all the full story yet – but the more gratitude I feel, the more reasons I find to feel gratitude.

In closing this post, I’m learning that nature and our earth are incredibly healing. I’m planning a trip shortly here to spend a little bit of time in nature, alone this time, amongst the trees.  More details to come…




Our Pets Are Spirits In Animal Bodies

I’m going to share a story that I posted on my personal blog. All of this happened today:

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RIP, our dearest Sunshyne
June 2009-July 24th 2012

I loved Sunshyne, she was the sweetest pit bull this world has ever seen. She was a healer, a teacher, a Spirit and a very happy dog.  She is gone (in body) now. Here are some pictures of this precious Spirit who I know is now in a much happier and joyful place.

The story goes like this: my sister and niece were forced to give up their sweet pit bull dog, because their apt. complex didn’t want any pits around because of their ‘reputation’. They threatened eviction, and my sister had tried in vain to find places that took pit bulls, but nobody around here does anymore. She’d almost been evicted out of her last place for the same reason.

I was also close to Sunshyne even though I didn’t live with them. She was the first animal I ever did healing work on, during which I learned some VERY important things. She also helped heal me of some of my OCD tendencies.  (A story I will tell at another time).  She helped heal my sister’s broken heart.

She was an extra special animal. She not only helped my sister through one of her darkest times, but showed her unconditional love. She taught my sister more about love than anyone else so far, I think.

So today, we took Sunshyne to the animal shelter, amidst tears and fond memories. It was time.  My sister had gotten another eviction notice warning.

We knew there was the threat of Sunshyne being put to sleep pretty quickly, because the shelter is full to overflowing with animals. There is a sign on the wall of the intake section saying as much. We hugged her, loved her up and finally dropped her off and left crying right around 12:10pm. At around 12:27, I impulsively checked my cell phone for the time. I suddenly knew that they had euthanized her already. And that the time of death was 12:22. I just knew all these things simultaneously.  You see, earlier when we were at my sister’s apartment, before we left for the shelter, I had actually communicated with the Spirit of the dog. I was able to pass on messages from her to my sister and niece.  I also asked Sunshyne’s spirit if she could let me know when she was released back into the spirit world.

And she did, alright!  During the ride, right before I checked my phone, my sister and I both felt a sudden peace and calmness.  I asked my sister if she felt it, and she said she did.  Then right about that moment, I literally felt Sunshyne  next to me – on my left side. It was almost a physical feeling but not 100% physical. More a feeling. It was the same feeling of love I got around her anytime she was around me in real life. But stronger.

I didn’t mention my knowing about the death to my sister, because she was already upset and had to go to work.  She dropped me off at her apartment and I got in my car, ran an errand then drove home.

I called the shelter an hour or two later and spoke to one of the vets in the shelter and found out that yes, Sunshyne had been put to sleep, right around the time we felt the peace and the time I felt her spirit so strongly.

I know Sunshyne’s spirit is alive and free and joyful and that she is being rewarded in the heavens for such a loyal, loving, and healing life. But I am still crying my eyes out. I did have a physical attachment to her.  She loved me so much and would be so excited when I came to visit and run around like a nutcase grunting with joy.  She will be dearly missed, most of all by my sister, who was and is so deeply attached to her. Part of my crying is for my sister, who is hurting so badly right now.

But we’ll see her Spirit again… probably sooner rather than later. (According to our animal channeling session before we took her to the shelter).

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Goodbye my dearest Sunshyne!

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