What a gorgeous tree picture! No, I did not take it.
So, I’m still doing really well. 2012 is definitely a year of letting go, as I mentioned in my last post. I decided to post some updates here on this site from my Facebook account. (Add me there if you’d like!) They kind of go along with the theme that I’ve been noticing in the past month or two.
I posted this on my Facebook on July 26th, 2012:
I just lost a beloved family pet, I just lost another friend (that makes 3 good friends this year who no longer want anything to do with me), and lost some of my sanity in recent months; however, life is good nonetheless. No matter what I lose, I still seem to have a certain peace, a certain ‘knowing’ that things are OK. I know I will never lose what is within me, and that is the most important thing of all.
Then I posted this on July 30th, 2012:
I’m learning a lot this year. In ‘losing’ friends and letting go of ‘things’, I’m realizing we don’t really own anything in this physical world. Emotions come and go, possessions and people come and go, seasons change, time goes on. The nature of the physical world is change. We just have to learn to change with it peacefully, learn the lessons that accompany it and embrace the newness each moment. And let go of what is not ours now, nor never was in the first place.
An intriguing thing continues to happen as I deliberately let go of attachments. (Which yes, has been a very slow process indeed). I’m learning to truly trust myself, for the first time ever. And other people are actually trusting me. The more I let go – the less I ‘grasp’ things and people – the more new things and people are attracted to me, for various reasons. The more I ‘let go and let God’ as the saying goes, the more interesting life becomes.
In letting go of attachments to people, places and things, this doesn’t mean I’m becoming an unfeeling, cold machine with people and cutting everyone and everything out of my life. Quite the opposite, in fact… I’m finding that I feel a more pure, open-hearted and all-encompassing love within myself, for everyone and everything – including my own self/Self, which is new for me. As I slowly let go of things and people who no longer match my vibration (and vice versa), I’m finding so much more peace and joy! And after having some people move out of my life this year, I’m finally now beginning to let new people in. I’m learning how to enjoy a person and the friendship for what it is in any current moment. Because it always changes anyway!
Although everything isn’t perfect, I feel a lot of gratitude right now. This has been one of the hardest years of my life – I know I still haven’t told you all the full story yet – but the more gratitude I feel, the more reasons I find to feel gratitude.
In closing this post, I’m learning that nature and our earth are incredibly healing. I’m planning a trip shortly here to spend a little bit of time in nature, alone this time, amongst the trees. More details to come…