I learned a very important lesson over the weekend: our natural state is bliss. The only thing making us think we are sick, miserable, unhappy and/or unhappy is our own thoughts. Truly!

I attended a ‘Still Mind Weekend’ at the College of Metaphysics over the weekend. The weekend was focused on allowing us to just be our true Selves – silent, at peace with nature and Whole. Truly it was one of the most amazing weekends of my life! We began Friday night by reading truths from a holy book around the table and stating our reasons for wanting a still mind in the first place. As of 11pm, the official silence began. We were silent from then until 9:30am or so on Sunday morning. We also juice fasted during that time. There were three official still mind meditations on Saturday and one last one Sunday morning. The other times we were free to wander around the beautiful campus – which has several places to meditate, sit under trees, watch animals, and also spots with sacred geometry. There was also a sacred fire going all day on Saturday and it turned out to be a great place to purify the thoughts.

When you spend time in such quietness and make a real effort to still your mind for any period of time, interesting things begin happening. When you do those things and then also meditate with a group of people along with a teacher who knows how to completely still his mind for extended periods of time, profound things happen. You begin to realize that stillness, peace and bliss is our natural state. The body literally begins to heal itself. This began to happen to me during our first still mind meditation Saturday morning. Sitting in the Peace Dome meditating with the others, a strange feeling I didn’t recognize started to flow through my body. It made me laugh quietly inside, which turned into a rhythmic breathing, which turned into deep breathing, which turned into my body beginning to stretch on its own. I realized pretty quickly that it was a feeling of bliss! How strange that I didn’t recognize it!

As the inner silence stretched on during that first meditation and my thoughts ceased to fire (mostly), my body decided that it wanted to heal some of the ailments that my thoughts had caused over the years. So it did… my neck and head began moving gently into stretches. My breathing took on a life of its own – I was literally being ‘breathed’ by spirit. I also continued to silently laugh with joy and bliss inside my stomach. My head and shoulders and neck were stretched gently (through head motions mostly, side to side, back and forth, etc) to the point that at the end of the meditation – an hour and a half later, which actually flew by so quickly! – my shoulders and neck released tension that had built up over years. As we walked out of the dome silently, I was buzzing with a joy and bliss I still couldn’t understand.

The second meditation that afternoon, the healing continued. I became aware that I was being guided through the stretches and breathing, as some invisible entity presence made itself known. I received gentle inner mind instructions on stretching and breathing. I breathed more deeply than I ever have in this lifetime. (The breathing was a gift, because I can now do it anytime I choose and it immediately produces stillness in my mind!)

Later that afternoon, however, I began having my thoughts come up loudly. My ego was unhappy about all this bliss apparently! Plus the deep breathing released some old memory patterns and unproductive beliefs. I went to sit by the sacred fire with the teacher/leader and a couple of others, but my mind was so loud and I was beginning to get upset. I battled that within for a while and finally went to meditate under a tree in the orchard for a while and realized that no matter what nasty, negative thoughts came up, I felt love for myself and others. Even for my ego, which was very threatened at that point.

The third meditation that day was a continuation and deepening. There were definitely spiritual presences in the peace dome throughout the meditations. I could see bright sparks of lights of different colors and at various points throughout the meditation (which was an open and/or closed eye meditation – I found open eyes allow me to stay still minded longer). Brilliant blue, white and purple light was present throughout the front of the dome and around the teacher.

I had waited many months to be able to meditate with that particular teacher, because I knew profound things would happen while meditating in his presence, and sure enough they did: bliss, and outpouring of love and a connectedness with my higher Self.

I woke early Sunday morning and sat on the porch of the main building and watched the sky lighten. I did some deep breathing on the bench and realized at that moment that I could become still anytime I wanted now, just by doing that particular breathing. It also triggered the bliss and gentle head and neck movements. I’ve realized since the weekend that the head and neck movements are/were my body’s way of healing not only current life issues, but past life issues. (More about that later in the post.)

Sunday morning’s still mind meditation and what followed after were truly the most profound and important experiences of my life so far… to begin with, there was a strong presence of unconditional love present in the dome that morning. Very powerful. Then somewhere about halfway through, I began to experience my Kundalini rising up and burning through my chakras. Now, I’ve experienced kundalini energy before, however, this was different. It was literally rising like a fire. I felt this extremely powerful energy flow through me suddenly. My body, which had been once again ‘intuitively breathing’ and gently moving on its own, began vibrating. The breathing changed. I won’t get too much into details, as there is plenty of information around the internet about what a kundalini rising feels like (think indescribable ecstasy, bliss, etc). It didn’t go through all of my chakras, but it did fill me with Light. Suddenly I heard in my mind, ‘Now only the Light remains’. My eyes were closed at this point and I saw that inner bright light that occurs during meditation sometimes, was brighter than ever before.

The meditation wrapped up soon after, but we weren’t done… there was more in store for us! The teacher took us downstairs to the bottom floor of the peace dome. And without going into details, we were allowed then to spend about an hour or so in the presence (literally) of Spirit/Superconscious Mind. We were even able to each ask a question. The questions and answers produced an inner joy and inner crying of relief, because it released years and probably even lifetimes of misunderstandings about life, light, love, etc. It also confirmed what is written here as being an expression of Truth.

We then wrapped up the weekend with a delicious healthy brunch meal and shared our experiences around the table. The teacher had us write up a paper describing our experiences. Later I got to sit and talk with him one on one for a bit, which is always a great joy and blessing because he is an incredibly wise person.

So, the weekend was filled with amazing experiences… bliss, joy, love, facing of negative thoughts for a while, peace, long meditations, stillness, much healing, etc. My body feels completely different now and the healing has continued. I now can go still for longer periods of time and my home meditations have increased in time. Other profound things occurred that weekend that I didn’t share here, but overall I realized the most important thing: take away the thoughts, and the body can begin to correct itself and heal itself and restore us to radiant health and bliss, which is our true nature! Thought is cause. Our thoughts are the only thing making us feel sick and miserable. When enjoying a stilled mind, one begins to know that the present is all that matters, the present is all that really exists. Thinking about the past and worrying about the future is a complete waste of time and causes pain.

The weekend has left me with a strong sense of wanting to share this truth with a great number of people. I’ve also been left with a more open heart and mind and much more peace. The only way to still the mind is to practice, every single day. I have been practicing concentration exercises and meditation for many months now and they have definitely paid off. I intend to continue my practices for the rest of my life… one can always progress. My goal is to be able to still my mind at will for as long as I want, and to mostly exist in that state.

So to wrap up this long post, I’ll share something else amazing that happened yesterday. When I was in Boston earlier this month, I’d set up an intuitive reading with a healer/psychic. The reason I called him in the first place is because I was reading through a New Age magazine and this guy’s picture literally jumped out and caught my attention. I knew I was divinely inspired to call him. So I called him, hoping to set up an in-person appointment. He didn’t have any available for the time I was in Boston, so we rescheduled for Oct. 25th. I was disappointed at the time but now I know it was perfect that I waited. While talking to him on the phone in Boston and yesterday during the reading, I became filled with this beautiful healing peace. Anyway, the session was exactly what I had been waiting for on more than one level. He immediately began talking about a past life where I had died in a certain way that caused neck and shoulder issues in this life. He mentioned another life where I had also injured my neck. So, I realized that the healing that was occurring over this past weekend was going through many lifetimes. I’d always had neck issues and pain in this life. Now I know why!

He also got into some other past life things and I was able to ask very specific things and receive very specific answers. This guy literally gave me the most direct and concise reading I have ever received (from a psychic/intuitive, that is). There was no ‘um, I don’t know…’s or hemming and hawing or beating around the bush. This guy is the real deal. Most incredibly, he even mentioned and clarified about a life that I’d brought up under past-life regressions last year! He also confirmed some of what I had received recently clairaudiently (during meditations and such) that I hadn’t trusted to be real information, but turns out that it is. He told me that I am a teacher of ‘young souls’ in the inner levels (also something I’d received through meditation and memory on my own but still wasn’t 100% sure of). He checked to see my soul’s purpose, which I hadn’t been totally clear about. It is: to learn everything I can while in this lifetime so I don’t have to incarn here again. That made me laugh out loud because it resonated so strongly as truth. I went through periods of bliss while talking to him and my body started doing the intuitive breathing on its own again. I knew I received incredible healing.

Needless to say, I highly recommend this guy! His website is here.

Anyway… all of my experiences over the past several days have really made me realize the importance of my metaphysical studies and daily disciplines (concentration, meditation, etc). If anyone out there reading this has any questions about a direction to take in their life, are at a crossroads and/or knows that there is more to all of this physical realm, please feel free to email me. I would love to help and provide intuitive guidance. I know others can experience all the things I have experienced and more. And if you live in Texas, Oklahoma, Missouri, Indiana, Illinois, Kentucky, Iowa or Ohio, check and see if there is a School of Metaphysics in your area. The study is literally changing my life and opening my eyes to who I really am as a soul/spirit.

Anyway, thanks for reading this very long post! I’ll be back with a new post shortly…!